Phases of Life!!

I really wonder what this life is all about.There are times when I feel that I am the most happiest man on earth but then comes a phase when I squander it all. Well, I love to play sports but because of this injury I suffered during 2 years back, I have to stay away from sports and other exercises.Sometimes I feel that God is partial. When I look at life around me I feel that I am the only one suffering, when all my friends play I just sit and watch,contemplating every moment of the day when I suffered this injury.Why does it have be me?? It is true god has given me a lot and I am very grateful to him also.Probably some of the successful incidents in my life made me a little proud.For all I learn is that whenever there is something I feel proud off,bang!! something or the other happens. All I can do is patiently wait for things to get better.Why cant it be that life is always filled with happiness no sorrows at all.A world where no man suffers everyone is happy.Probably the reason god does this is because he wants man to remember him always. God I will remember you always, for you are my best friend, my sole companion in life.I have enormous trust in you God. All I ask you is a life without sufferings.But one thing I must admit is all these suffering taught me to be bold.Half the cure for these endless sufferings is the mental strength. But there is a limit, whenever I lose my mental strength I feel God is not fair to me. God please have pity on me and put an end to these sufferings.

Life sucks big time

Hi all
At this moment I am damn pissed of with life.No intern damn it.. After one and half month of serious applying there is no reply from anyone.Time is running out I donno where my life is heading.Neways all that I can do is wait and be patient."He who calmly bears the difficulties in life also serves God".. John Milton .This quote is all that I can remember.If I do wish for a miracle to take place it should be now.I will keep my fingers crossed and wait n see what will happen.

Only If I knew

Well this is my first blog.The title "Only if I knew" is due to the fact that I really don't know why people blog, probably i will figure it out when I will become a regular blogger.
It 12:15am 20th Jan 2007.I am extremely bored,dont fell like doing anything.Just wondering abt all weird things.Well for those of you who r reading this I ll not bore u guys.I ll share incidents of my life which I have never put them down on the paper.
Todays incident is about my first crush( as far as I can remember..).It was in the seventh class when I saw this girl for the first time(my first day school..joined newlu).She was obviously eye catch owing to the fact that she was wearing sports uniform that day where as others were in their regular uniform.For a momet I felt that she is the most beautiful girl I ever saw(one reason could that the girls around her werent that gud looking) Jokes apart she had a very plesant smile on her face which till today registered in my mind.I didnt speak to her on that day though she was one among the many who welcomed me to the class.In my case it so happens that I get dumb when I have to talk whom I have feelings for (I think that happens with a lot of people).Though I never told her about my feelings till today but she was n is the strongest crush I ever had in my life.Though I have met many better looking girls, I can compare none to her.
As time passed by I tried to be close to her but destiny never let it happen.To admit some facts I was a little egoistic at time time so was she.Well today she with someone else but my feelings for her have not changed a bit.
The incidents wid her in school were interesting which I ll write in my next blog(which I dont know when) till then its gudbye from my side

PS- If u the girl I mentioned in my blog I hope you wont mind.